It’s actually Sunday this time. So I dunno, another sad blog post time.
I pretty much did nothing social from Monday to Friday. Saturday Zebulon got home and him, Dandan, Kate, Caleb, Amos and I all went to see Step Brothers. It was hilarious. Oh man.
Today I hung out with Zebulon and Dandan. The power went out so we just sat and argued abaout batman, comcis, Alan Moore, and Tim Burton. Soon the power came back on and we went to McDonald’s then when we came back here we watched that scary indie documentary, “Jesus Camp”. Yeah, it was ridiculous. So I’m just finishing “Eclipse” from the Twilight series. My mum is reading the new one currently. I love those books D: as many other people do. I feel like discussing books that had a big effect on you with a bunch of other crazed fans takes away a lot of your sacred feelings for the book, so I don’t. *cough* anyway.
So I haven’t had my cell phone in a little more than a week now, which is fucking annoying. I’m starting to doubt a few of my friendships. I’m apparently not important enough to remember a lot of the time it seems. Like, if my friends say they are gonna come get me and were gonna hang out and then decide they can’t they forget to call me and tell me not to stay up till like 3 a.m waiting for them to come get me. Sometimes I call them and then they tell me they can’t hang out, so clearly they have no plans of calling me anyway. It hurts a LOT to be ignored and forgotten like it’s no big deal, especially when you NEVER get an apology in any way, shape, or form. Yeah, friends can be super duper shitty and I forgive way to easily. I bet I’ll never even talk to them about it till it eats me alive and I rip into them about it.
Awesome.
So thinking of such things and being lonely really takes it’s toll. I am sleepy and I just want to cuddle. I want to be loved, above all and actually know it’s happening. Fuck. Bitch bitch bitch whine whine whine angst angst angst. UGH. I’m really frustrated with myself right now. I’m going through awesome bouts of self loathing and just hating everybody, while wanting them around. Wow. This is retarded. No shit nobody reads this crap.
I’m other news I saw Batman twice and I’m losing weight and looking better. My hair is lookin’ like shit though, I really need to do something about it. Meh. I have a job interview with Hannaford to push carts Tuesday at 5, which I may need to cancel because I have a doctors appointment that day around the same time. If it costs money for my mum to reschedule my appointment then I’ll just reschedule my interview. I REALLY don’t want to work at Hannaford. I need my cell phone back because all my reference numbers are in it, which I need to get a job at Marshall’s which i heard is really easy to get in from a girl with tons of facial peircings and tattoos, meaning I could get my septum and work there. My grammar is awful. It’s like 9:50 and I’m already exhausted. Working out tomorrow is gonna suck, I’m gonna be sooo tired.
Hmm so in all honesty, I wonder when the next time is that I’ll be really really happy. Misery is for squares.
Raven=wicked square.
Farewell.
