Radblog.

Ho hum. I haven’t written here in a while, as I say each time I write something.

Since the last time I wrote anything I have gotten a job at Hannaford, I had Orientation yesterday and I start training tomorrow. -_-

I also have a new boyfrann. His name is Teddy, it’s a long distance relationship T_T He is very very sweet and adorable. I adore him, he makes me really really happy and gives me insane butterflies in my stomache. Anyway… I’m intertwining last week and this week together for the top 10.

1. Went to a wonderful show that I’d been promoting the shit out of for like a month. It didn’t sell out but it was supposed to, it was advertised well enough and fuckin’ “Our Last Night” who is sighed, played. Whatever. It was fun and I got a dicounted shirt from “Caligula” because I’m friends with them and I’m “legit”. I also got a  free cd from “These Green Eyes” who’m are very nice people and make fabulous music. Boy, I love sweaty hugs at shows.
2. Slept over Crystal’s and made her a cute shirt, which she payed for.
3. Got my cell phone back.
4. Learned that I lost enough weight to fit into a medium unisex t-shirt. YESSSUH.
5. changed my bedsheets, yes this is good.
6. Did laundry, I got to the point where I had no underwear and had to go comando, which I despise, let me tell you.
7. Slept over Shay and Dayunn’s for a couple days. I hadn’t seen them in a while and have been pretty anti-social anyway.
8. Talked to Teddy today, I hadn’t gotten to talk to him all week D: I was very sad.
9. Got that job and orientation and all that jazz.
10. Got a sweet new graphic novel about Punch, from Punch and Judy, those creepy old renescance puppets. It’s by Neil Gaiman, who is a BAMF.

Those are a bit out of order, but thats ok. I can’t wait to work out tomorrow, I need to because I missed going Friday because i was  with Shay and Dan and I pretty much have eaten nothing but crap since then. A good thing about working at hannaford is that first, they are starting me off with $8 per hour, AND they have a really good organics and health section so I can buy my own grocerys. It WOULD help if I got a discount but NOOO. Zebulon also works there, so it should be ok. Theres a lot to learn and my attention span is so short. I hope I don’t get in trouble too much.

Humhumhum. The end.

It’s actually Sunday this time. So I dunno, another sad blog post time.

I pretty much did nothing social from Monday to Friday. Saturday Zebulon got home and him, Dandan, Kate, Caleb, Amos and I all went to see Step Brothers. It was hilarious. Oh man.

Today I hung out with Zebulon and Dandan. The power went out so we just sat and argued abaout batman, comcis, Alan Moore, and Tim Burton. Soon the power came back on and we went to McDonald’s then when we came back here we watched that scary indie documentary, “Jesus Camp”. Yeah, it was ridiculous. So I’m just finishing “Eclipse” from the Twilight series. My mum is reading the new one currently. I love those books D: as many other people do. I feel like discussing books that had a big effect on you with a bunch of other crazed fans takes away a lot of your sacred feelings for the book, so I don’t. *cough* anyway.

So I haven’t had my cell phone in a little more than a week now, which is fucking annoying. I’m starting to doubt a few of my friendships. I’m apparently not important enough to remember a lot of the time it seems. Like, if my friends say they are gonna come get me and were gonna hang out and then decide they can’t they forget to call me and tell me not to stay up till like 3 a.m waiting for them to come get me. Sometimes I call them and then they tell me they can’t hang out, so clearly they have no plans of calling me anyway. It hurts a LOT to be ignored and forgotten like it’s no big deal, especially when you NEVER get an apology in any way, shape, or form. Yeah, friends can be super duper shitty and I forgive way to easily. I bet I’ll never even talk to them about it till it eats me alive and I rip into them about it.

Awesome.

So thinking of such things and being lonely really takes it’s toll. I am sleepy and I just want to cuddle. I want to be loved, above all and actually know it’s happening. Fuck. Bitch bitch bitch whine whine whine angst angst angst. UGH. I’m really frustrated with myself right now. I’m going through awesome bouts of self loathing and just hating everybody, while wanting them around. Wow. This is retarded. No shit nobody reads this crap.

I’m other news I saw Batman twice and I’m losing weight and looking better. My hair is lookin’ like shit though, I really need to do something about it. Meh. I have a job interview with Hannaford to push carts Tuesday at 5, which I may need to cancel because I have a doctors appointment that day around the same time. If it costs money for my mum to reschedule my appointment then I’ll just reschedule my interview. I REALLY don’t want to work at Hannaford. I need my cell phone back because all my reference numbers are in it, which I need to get a job at Marshall’s which i heard is really easy to get in from a girl with tons of facial peircings and tattoos, meaning I could get my septum and work there. My grammar is awful. It’s like 9:50 and I’m already exhausted. Working out tomorrow is gonna suck, I’m gonna be sooo tired.

Hmm so in all honesty, I wonder when the next time is that I’ll be really really happy. Misery is for squares.

Raven=wicked square.

Farewell.