So I’m gonna count this post as my first real one. GET PUMPED.
Alright so I think I’m getting ill again, I felt pretty feverish in English today and still have since then. Two kids that I hate [yes, hate] came back to school from their suspension today, they were arrested for possession. Haha, Tools. That put me in a pretty pissed mood. It’s the kind of hatred when you can’t think about anything else except your hatred and every time you see them all you wanna do is kick their legs from underneath them and wail on them till all their nasty yellow teeth are gone. I called my friend Blake who I don’t get to see very often and asked him to come get me and he was like “Oh, are you having trouble with somebody?” I said no and told him I just felt really sick. Blake is a really interesting person and we always have pretty amazing conversations on the phone, he is one of my favorite people even though I don’t get to see him much. Just for an FYI in the future, I have writing ADD and I’m really awful at grammar so try to keep up while reading my posts. So recently I’ve been working pretty hard in school. I’ve been preparing for mid terms and doing annoying essays and trying to get caught up. Life doesn’t really seem interesting these days because there is no substance and nothing to look forward to. My days are just lived, nothing good happens. I am fueled by my dumb angst and I tune people out with my music quite a lot so my social life is diminishing. I don’t like as many people I used to hang out with as much as I used to, they are just always the same and are all gossipy. At school I tend to hang out with mostly guys, they all have a really ridiculously vulgar sense of humor and are the “music people” as they decided. We don’t have much in common except we like music a whole lot…not really the same kinds but we can still appreciate each other’s company, at least I appreciate theirs. I get enjoyment from listening to them say disgusting things, too. I don’t get enjoyment hearing about other girls shit anymore so I chose not to hang out with girls as much. It’s cool how boys don’t bitch and moan about stupid shit all the time and they don’t judge as much as girls and aren’t nearly as malicious. My best friend’s name is Zebulon, I have a few really great friends but I’d say he’s my best. Me, Megatron, [Zeb] and our mutual bestie, Dan Jewface hang out at Zebby’s house like every Friday and just talk about shit all night and eat Zeb’s family’s food. Megatron’s family is the best, if I could adopt myself and my mom into their family we would have the best family in the world. I love Dan’s family, too. Alright..back to current events I suppose.
My highlights of this week have been:
1-Snow Day on Monday, I was sick then too so I just watched movies with my mom all day, it was ballin’. I also made an amazing Loch Ness Monster t-shirt.
2- I got all my laundry done, it’s so great to have clean clothes every day of the week..not a luxury I usually am able to take part in. I love the smell of laundry detergent.
3- Finished my half of me and Ari’s English project, I always feel kinda good about myself after I finish a project on time. Me and Ari both have procrastination issues, his are worse though. I thought we were sharing today though but we are actually sharing the day of exams so we have a while more to go so I’m glad we got it out of the way. Ari did his in his opens today.
4-Watched The Fountain and ate corn flakes with GabeGabe.
5-Hated people, it’s something to do, seriously.
6-Downloaded KC and JoJo songs. BAM!
7-Deleted a bunch of stuff from my myspace, it looks much nicer now. I don’t drastically update it a lot so when I do it’s fun.
What a fascinating life, eh? Well, thats mine. You know what I absolutely adore? When bands have the same tune in more than one song as a theme. Coheed and Cambria does it and I love how they do it because then I listen to the next cd and I’m like “HEY! I RECOGNIZE THAT!” anb I bask in the warmth of remembrance. I also really love good conversations and advice from good smart friends. I ALSO adore really good hugs, unexpected surprise hugs from the back are always my fave, too. Walking home and daydreaming the whole time is also really great in my book as well. Hmm…I get joy in simple things like that. If my whole life consisted of going to local shows, painting monster murals, sculpting sea monsters, painting items, daydreaming, and conversations in basements till 11 at night then my life would be a lot more enjoyable. If I could magically make a room it would be a HUGE art room. There would be a corner with lots of clay and I would just make really large sea monsters and sharks and I would put them on the top of my house and on my front lawn. I would have a human spine complete with the tail bone and I would just draw pictures of it all the time. [I really wish to acquire a human spine legally because I think they are really nifty.] Hmm..what else would be in that room?.. glitter paint , big pieces of paper, endless good collage pictures. I love collages but it takes forever to find enough good pictures. There would be lots of colored pencils and black lights and I would splatter paint the white walls with black light paint and red, blue, and yellow. I would paint monsters on the wall, too. Hmm…that room would be amazing….I would have a water bed in there too, just to take naps on. There would be a really big window..like a whole wall would be a window. I would put the water bed in front of the window [hopefully the cover wouldn't melt] so I could sleep in the sun like cats. I’ve been putting a lot of thought into something that I really wanted lately and I thought that would be an amazing new get away, ya know? I think about stuff like that a lot because it makes me smile. Maybe I will acquire all these things someday..minus the availability of putting large clay sea creatures on my roof… and the human spine. The sea creatures would either
a-break my roof
b-get weathered away by rain and snow
c-birdies would poop on it [not cool! I would not go up there and clean it!]
d-eventually the weathering away would make parts of it fall apart and with my luck a head of one of them would probably fall off and onto some pedestrian and I’d get sued for their injuries or their death by their families.
Hmm…
I swear I’m not on drugs. I’m never on drugs. The only drugs I do are ibyprophin and other over the counter pain killers..to kill pain, not to get high.
RAMBLERAMBLERAMBLE.
so yeah.. I guess that was a taste of what to expect from me in the future and a nice look into the black hole that is my brain.
