Radblog.

I didn’t post last week but thats ok, I didn’t have anything of importance then either.

Today is sunday, also known as mothers day, also known as “lets make Raven feel like the most unnapreciateative, awful, selfish person in the entire world” day, according to my mother.

Top ten anyone?

put music on my zune

found out I’m faling math and small buisness management miserably.

made a yellow shark t-shrt that says “Don’t judge me, Im’a werkin’ man!

went grocery shopping. Yay.

watched some amazing and ridiculous film in small buisness.

got my first comission, I’m gonna paint a pair of converse all stars for this girl in my sbm class for like 10 dollars.

hung out the gang

met these two haliarious boys named Eddie and Paul. Magical.

said “Man, when I grow up I want to marry an asian guy and have a child with it, then when I am bored of its cuteness I will put it ikn the sewer and come back 20 years later to see if it becamse some cablasian lizard hybrid thing” [cablasian is caucasian, black, and asian all mixed together. I am black AND white so asian would be cool thrown into the mix.]

got in a fight with mom.

Thats all that will come out of my heads today.

AYOH!

So today is Monday, I didn’t post yesterday because yeah..I didn’t feel like it.

highlights? I believe so.

• [i like bullets better than numbers.] Made ridiculous sidewalk chalk pictures with kayla. AMAZING.
• celebrated mum’s birthday party, I then went to Manchester to stay with Shaybles and Dayunn for the week
• bought a shirt at the mall with Shaybles, it is blue and has knives on it.
• basically did the same thing every day, woke up and ate breakfast Shaybles made, took Dayunn to werk, showered and dressed, hung around the apartment for hours, then went to the park for a couple hours.
• Joined vampire freaks again [since like 3 years ago xD]
• Thursday Chris and Mattycakes came up and hung out with me, shay, and dayunnn and we all went to the park. It was all fun and hilarious till shay was chasing me and stripped over a stump onto another one that went three inches into her leg, right below her knee. It was brutal, you could see her fat and tendons and stuff, it was rather gruesome. After paramedics came and stuff we all went to the hospital, me Chris and Mattycakes were in the waiting room for about 2 or 3 hours and just acted ridiculous the whole time. We wouldn’t have been like that if Shay’s condition was fatal or something so don’t judge us! It was really good that we were all ok with it, I’m the most queezy out of all of the friends I was with and was really good about it; everybody was able to laugh and see the comedy in it. [were all a bit morbid...yeah...] Shay is now on Vicodin. It sucked the next day because she hadn’t really eaten anything substantial and got wicked woozy. It sucked.
• Went glow bowling with a bunch of people, me, shay [obviously], donovan, and colleen didn’t bowl because we didn’t have money, everybody else did and it was still grand. Us non-bowlers got bored eventually and went back to the apartment and ate colleen’s Chinese food. You know…I really don’t see the major appeal in bowling, it’s only a teensie bit cooler during the night.
• On Saturday Shay and Dan got food poisoning, me and Chris didn’t understand why were fine but they were puking all over the place. It was nasty so Chris brought me home, what a nice Chris. [he's my 7 year old brother, mattycakes is my 8 year old brother, I'm 3 years old, Shay is my mem mem and dayunn is my pap pap. HAHA]
• DID LAUNDRY YAYYYY!
• Found out I’m gaining mad weight. That happens when I don’t spend a lot of time at home eating other people junk food. Me and mum are gonna get gym memberships. LAWLZ.

Yeppuh. The only interesting days were Thursday and Saturday because of the accident and the sickness. Yepp. Manchvegas was nice, though. Anytime I get to spend a lot of time away from home and with friends I don’t see a lot and adore is nice..you know..unless it’s not nice. I didn’t werk all week, which only sucks because I don’t get paid. I got paid like 40 bucks from one weeks werk, [I get paid bi-week;y and have shitty hours..] which I used to give to Shay and Dan for gas and food, I shouldn’t have to have done that…but oh well, it’s just nice to do.  As much as I love them, it’s good to be home. I get to sleep in my comfy bed and I don’t have to change in the bathroom directly after my shower, I really hate that because then your clothes are all clingy! D:< I also don’t have as much access to soda and junk food, if it’s in front of me I want it but if it is not then I don’t. I get to use the computer more and do laundry without paying and I don’t have to spend my entire paycheck on gas because I don’t drive yet.

God fucking damn it. I need a new job. I’m hoping to get a job at the cafe down the street from my current workplace. My paycheck is gonna be all fucked up now because I got payed for one week before last week and I didn’t work last week so now it’s gonna be all obnoxious. -_- Oh well. I am a tired child and I want juice…we don’t have any though. Man, I used way too many brackets. Please forgive?

I’m so retarded..you know…in a skitso autistic kind of way?

I can’t think of a good leaving line that isn’t from sad song, I’ll try harder next time.

Bye.

Basically minutes after I posted last week I found out that that kid doesn’t like me. It made me miserable, it ruined my whole week and is STILL screwing with my head but not as bad as it was. It was terrible, I went to school on Monday and lasted half an hour in first period then I started to break down so I walked home. I couldn’t be at school because I was SO disgustingly depressed. It really isn’t that big of a deal in the long run but it feels like it just because I get my head fucked with a lot. It gets less and less pleasant each time and that time it was just unbearable. Thats basically what happened in a nut shell, there is a lot more detail I could go into about how depressed I was all week but I REALLY don’t feel like it and I doubt you wanna read my bitching anymore.

Highlight time? I think so. I may not do 10 this time, I guess we shall see.

1. Monday Misery, I went home and slept till like 1, then mom called dad and he came and took me to lunch, it was nice.
2. I started using charcoal colored pencils, I LOVE them. I finished two pictures with them and I really love the outcome, I think I’ll use those pencils more often.
3. Drank a lot of sobe.
4. Went to a really awesome local show on Friday, it was grand and I got to see some lovely people I haven’t seen in months. I was nice, I was pleased. I’m glad that happened, it kicked off a really good weekend for me and brought my mood up a lot.
5. Hung out the Manchvegas crew all weekend, I love them SOOOOO very much. I have wonderful friends, I’m so very happy I have them in my life.
6. Spent half my paycheck on graphic novels.

Yep, thrilling, isn’t it?

I’m supposed to go to bed soon but since I’ve only been getting like 5 hours of sleep this weekend because of them Manchvegas childrens I probably wont be able to force myself into sleep till like 2 or 3 -_- I hate that. I also hate how my internal clock always wakes me up at 8, 9, or 10 am. It sucks because I can be up till 7 am and only be able to sleep till then and then my friends will sleep till 3 in the afternoon so I’m just awake alone for hours till they wake up. UGHHH. I’m REALLY bad under pressure and around people I like, by the way. I get really stupid, it’s SO BADl and I always regret what I say immediately after I say it.

I don’t know what else to say to you crazy kids so have a wonderful night.

I know nobody even reads this anymore.

Over and out, Connecticut.

Well hot damn! This week has been pretty uneventful except for Friday and my weekend. I can’t think of what to start off with so I suppose it is top 10 time.

1. Got all caught up in math
2. Ms. Peare bitches at my insane photography teacher to stop stalking her and waiting in ambush to talk shit about me. Ms. Peare is my prep teacher, she’s like my second mom and my photo teacher always tells her how I am retarded, basically. I hate her.
3. Finished my photo “step test”
4. Started watching Young Frankenstein in English<3
5. Passed in my Blake story for English, I really hope I get a decent grade because I worked wicked hard on it.
6. Had an amazing mochachino shake. AMAZING.
7. Went out for Pizza with some of the childrens.
8. Went on a date with an adorable adorable adorable boy! :3
9. Went to Manchvegas, saw some grand people. Becca visited from college.
10. Watched “Are You Afraid of The Dark” with Kayla. We watched “The tale of the virtual pets.” HAHAHAHAA Oh man.

Currently I’m listening playradioplay! SOOOOOO adorable.

So that date was nice, I’ve never been on an actual date before so it was kinda awkward and I didn’t really know what to do…I like him though so I really hope it works out. I don’t wanna get my hopes up too high though, ya know? We saw Horton hears a Who, went to the mall, and then went to Borders. I bought a really cute graphic novel. “Courtney Crumrin and the night things” Read it, it’s grand. Apparently theres like three books in ther same series, Ted Naifeh is the shit. He tis a really good story teller.I guess thats all I’ll say about that. I feel the need to do a really lame myspace survey, I have nothing better to do. I really want to talk to that boy now but he is not online and calling him would be strange and I’d seem too eager..yeah. Shit’s weak, yo. Time for The Postal Service. I love them :3 “I want so badly to believe that there is truth and love is real and I want life in every word to the extent that it’s absurd.”

SO yeah…I’m tired and I’m excited to wash my face and go to bed. I probably wont be able to fall asleep till like three though because I was up wicked late all weekend. “I know you’re wise beyond your years but do you ever get the fear that your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?”

Yep. So I made Zebulon 2 wicked sweet mix cd’s and I decorated the Jewel case jackets all wonderful and stuffs. I hate when typos are so outrageous that the spell check won’t work. I especially hate when you only misspell a word by one letter and the spell checker WILL NOT comprehend it. Oh man. Wow, my brain = rainbow tornado. Instead of cows floating around it the tornado it’s filled with sharks, the Loch Ness monster, lighting, strawberry smoothies, stars, people with bloody noses, and little fluffy monsters. I’m currently reading Frankenstein, it’s enjoyable. Weeewoo. Goddamn. I’m gonna go now.

Go fuck yourselves, San Diego.

PINK! So I didn’t post last week because I was grounded again. Lawlz.

Umm I’ll do the top 5 highlights from LAST week and the top 10 from this week right now.

• Got turned down by that kid I liked, easy come easy go.
• Found out other people likes me, which is why it was so easy to get over being turned down.
• Hung out with the amazing childrens<3 we aw James! we haven’t hung out with him since last summer! :3 I missed him<3
• Cuddled.
• Ate candy on Easter

1. Zebulon hung out at werk with me
2. Helped out some friends in some need of somebody to confide in
3. Took some sweet rephotographs with the 35mm and got a couple contact sheets back, the pictures of Emulee came out wonderful. So excited.
4. Got asked out on a date by a cute kid..that was supposed to be number 1
5. Found out Awwstin’s birthday is the same as mine
6. Lost mah cell phone then got it back [this happens A LOT.]
7. Shaybles came and visited, I gave her my 9 page letter to her and a drawing I made her. She was pleased.
8. Talked to Blake, finished my report on him as well. It’s good.
9. Watched “Rain man” with Gab gab, Colm [who is a bitch hypocrite ass] and his girlfriend [who deserves somebody better than him]
10. Hung out with Kayla and Smeagly and ate their food.

The best. I have to urinate, oh man. Right now, in between writing this I am running back and forth working on the mural in my room, exciting eh? I think so. So This weekend has been pretty lame. Seriously, like Friday was a snow day so not many people could do anything because of the weather, eventually I watched that movie with Gabe and them. Saturday I was on the computer all day and then hung out with Kayla, Smeagly, and Shaybles then went back to the computer. Today I did the same thing except nobody wanted to hang out with me…oh well. Oh, the hassles of being car-less. WOOAAAHHHH! HEAVEN LET YO LIGHT SHINE DOWN!

Munchin’ one some Easter candyyy. So nobody but Shawn reads this so I guess the only point of me blogging is so I can empty the contents of my brain, sift through the junk, and examen it because I never really know whats goin’ on there, you know? Oh man, I want juicy juice…and somebody to actually call me back. These are things I want to do in my life:

• Be a comic book/graphic novel writer/illustrater
• Sing in an 80’s-esque band
• have a really intense long conversations with Gerard Way, Roman Dirge, Claudio Sanchez, Gris Grimly, Tim Burton, and Alan Moore.
• Become an extremely eccentric over the top rich person famous for something completely ridiculous like inventing the first back scratching electric triangle and guitar combo.

That would be pretty ballin’

You know…how about I address you guys? comment me telling me all the grand things you’d like to do in your future? It will be a contest, I’ll tell you guiys which is the most enjoyable to read and I’ll reward you by drawing you a picture? HUH?! I’m totally serious, I wanna know what goes on in my like…3[less?] readers heads. I like this idea, I’ll do it more often if it works. I’ll also do one for the 10 highlights of your week. :3

End scene.

So it’s another Sunday. This weekend and week have been kind of ridiculous in the sense that nothing interesting happened bit I feel like it was busy. Highlight time? I think so. I think I’ll use number bullets this time for some style points.

1. text message fun with the kid I like, not very impressive.
2. Took some nifty videos
3. got addicted to the games on my cell phone, it’s getting pretty bad
4. Had an I.E.P meeting, it sucked.
5. Broke down while worrying about my future yet again.
6. Went and bought cookies and stuff with Shawn after school then he went home.
7. Realized that the cover for Alanis Morisette’s “supposed former infatuation junkie” CD is rather creepy.
8. Went shopping with Zebulon, Dan Jewface and Seanie then hung out with Shaybles&Dayunn, Cwolleen, and BECCA! She came home from college for spring break.
9. Left my cell phone with Shaybles and Dayunn in Manchvegas D:< They were supposed to bring it back today, they promised. I’m mad about it right now.
10. made a new friend/crush. Yeah, I’m ridiculous but hey, it always helps to have more options with things like that…

So those number bullets didn’t give me the style points I was going for but whatevah.

Oh yeah, my mum also painted my room today. It’s not as dark as I wanted but it’s still nice. I didn’t do anything all weekend, seriously. I woke up Saturday and was like “SO yeah, I’ll do nothing but be on the computer allll day.” So I did and it was grand for a time but then when 8 rolled around I regretted my whole day. I really wished I had my cell phone so I could call people ti hang out and see if I got text messages. It was pretty suckish but oh well. Later that night things got better though. Today I was hoping to do something, I went to breakfast with my mom and some of her friends which was ok but I much would have been with my own friends. After a while I realized I didn’t feel like being with anybody today either. Very anti social right now, I don’t understand why either because I was grounded for 2 weeks and I just got ungrounded Friday. You’d think my whole weekend would be filled but noo. I don’t mind right now. I’m kinda sleepy but I know I wouldn’t be able to sleep. Oh well. I’ll go now. Sorry this was so incredibly boring, yo.

SO, Last Sunday my mother grounded me. I wont go into it because it was all very very stupid.

I’m grounded for another week but not from the computer. So, this week has actually been pretty grand.

*some old man with an “the end is near” sign shrieks* WHAT?! OH MY GAWWWDDD! SHE SAID IT WAS GOOD?! THE APOCALYPSE IS COMING!!!! *children run screaming and bloody cherubs fall from the sky*

Yes yes, it was grand. *wipes blood from face*

HIGHLIGHTS TIME!

• Was shitty, lawlz.
• Was sick and slept all day and read comic books. I was kind of thrilled.
• SNOW DAY! I was still sick, I had a pretty high fever but I did the same thing as the day before and started a REALLY amazing drawing. It’s progress is promising and it’s actually proportional [I have issues with proportion] I’ll upload it to show you when it is finished.
• Bought Sarah and KT’s birfday presents.
• Jennie gave me her CDs fo’ free :3
• Got my shitty progress report.
• asked that boy to the movies for when I get ungrounded he said YES. :DDDDDDDDD
• went to battle of the bands, it sucked ‘cept for Spirals, Jennie, and that funk band who’s name I can’t remember. Went to Scott’s house with Gabe and watched most of 28 weeks later.
• Gabe told me I acted like I was autistic, I realized I really do but only when I’m under pressure…it’s really sad but liberating to know so I can tone it down.
• Went to Sarah & KT’s surprise partay.

Well hotdamn kids. What an interesting time eh? Hopefully things with that kid work out, I really don’t want to be single any more, it’s eating me up. I actually don’t have much to say. I need to do more school work because I’m failing,though. I almost cried in front of Ari because I was failing English, it was pretty bad. My bedding came last week and I’m painting my room soon, I’m going to have close friends paint things in a mural in there, it’s gonna be awesome. I’m glad I have really creative friends, I’m pretty positive they are the best people in the whole world. So yeah..

Next week should be good, minus the groundage because it just bring me closer to the date. wish me luck, blog readers [which are very very few.]

I love you if you love me.

I’ve been really busy these last few days an unable to post till now. It’s Sunday so I’m still keeping my “End of the week” Promise. If it wasn’t for you, Shawn, I wouldn’t even be doing this. xD

SO this week kinda sucked, I spent it’s entirety trying to make up missing work, being sad because I’m failing everything, and building myself up to ask this kid I like out. I will go strait to the to 10 highlights.

• It snowed, I don’t like snow but still…
• Found out I was failing everything
• Went to ask the kid i like out on Friday but he wasn’t there, he got back as soon as I left to go back to photo. Sometimes I swear the universe is against me in every way possible.
• Made up a lot of things but still need to keep trucking
• Got a new mattress and box spring
• cleaned my entire room, it hasn’t been thoroughly cleaned since I was like 10. It’s ridiculous. Generally when I clean my room I get really overwhelmed and have to have help but I did all of it by myself. My mom keeps telling me how proud of me she is..it’s getting kind of annoying.
• Bought paint to redo my bedroom walls, I’m gonna do some mural action in there, too.
  
• Mum just ordered rainbow bedding for me. So yeah, I’m redoing my whole room and I’m pretty excited. I’ll actually like my room for the first time in my life.
• Got a massive headache and felt shitty all today.
• Talked to Kayler :3

The saddest thing to happen this week was that Shawn’s mom died. When he called me I didn’t know what to say… Although he hated her he still loved her. It made me think about my relationship with my mom, we are really close and I don’t know how I’d take it if she died. I really feel for you Shawn, just know that if you need to talk I am here, so is every body else..though I know you won’t take up that offer.

So yeah…

I guess I’ll ask that boy out next week and hope for the best and hope that I pass everything…

Wish me luck, all you viewers..which is very very few.

Have a lovely day/night/whatever.

Shawn yelled at me for not updating Friday…not that anybody reads this to care anyway. It’s Sunday, which sucks because Sunday is never fun. I guess I’ll update at the end of every week, so it doesn’t HAVE to be Friday. So I have had a pretty pleasing weekend but a not very pleasing school week. This quarter is seriously the worst. I think I’m going to go strait to the ten highlights of my week. OK GO!:

• Got more into my classes, hated them more.

• Participated in sending a little tin with a letter inside saying “Suck My Penor” with little yes and no boxes to various random people in the cafeteria during an open.

• Cut my knee in photography, first time I’ve bled through my pants from a wound in a very long time. It was humorous.
• Did all my course selection stuff for next year [senior year] and I’ll be taking mostly art classes, I have 2 English classes and 3 gym classes because I failed most of my gym classes other semesters in previous years.
• Skipped part of photo to visit BW and Shawn, I miss them A LOT.
• Talked about how Ari’s ass was sculpted by the gods with Kevin. I hope you both read this.
• Slept over Smeagly’s with Justinestein and Smeagly. Justine left at 5 a.m because she got sick.
• Hung out with Dayunn, Shaybles, Chwaitz, Kayla, and Smeagly on Saturday, Smeagly and Kayla slept over.
• Had a few 2 hour delays for school.
• Got new shoes, they are red plaid clogs. They’re spiffy.

I did more this week than last week but it still feels like less. I feel myself becoming more distant, more paranoid, and more alone around this period of time. I’ll get out of this slump soon enough, I’m not too worried about it and I’m not going to be an annoying bitch about it either. I’m reading Alice in Wonderland, the actual book I’m reading is made in the 50’s so it’s falling apart. It’s my grandma’s. Yayy antiques. Reading Alice In Wonderland is like reading a really long rant, it’s hard to keep my focus. I can only read like 20 pages of it without getting fed up but I want to read it for myself. If I tried to write a book it would probably be as rant-ish as Alice In Wonderland. Disney would try to make a movie out of eventually and if I lived to see the day that they did I would force them to not make it computer animated. I hate that crap. Some of those PIXAR movies are cute but all the kids movies they make these days have really stupid story lines. *sigh* The next generation of kids is gonna be so fucked up. They wont have awesome 90’s cartoons to look back on and all the amazing Disney movies we grew up with. Poor kids. I think I need to get another relaxer for my hair, then bleach part of my bangs again so I can dye those bleached parts different colors. I’m thinking neon green, turquoise, and hot pink. Sorry if I lost you guys there. You know what? My kitten is really adorable, both of my kikis are pretty cute. I all of a sudden have nothing good left to say. Good bye.

I guess I’ll be posting every Friday, eh? So today sucked. I started Small Business Management and photography two this week and they are both awful. Photo is awful because I have the only art teacher that makes art not fun and SBM sucks because the teacher is an ugly fat whore. Even all the teachers hate her, she humiliated me on the first day, bitch. I generally don’t hate my teachers that much, I USUALLY like my teachers but this year is just bad. I heard Junior year was supposed to be the best…but they lied pretty bad. I miss my old prep class with B.W and Shawn but I have photo that period for the rest of year, gross. It doesn’t help that the annoying girl alive is in it and all she does and yell about crap that nobody cares about. Her voice makes me die inside. This Friday is lame, I had a bunch of people that wanted to hang out but every single person bagged out so I don’t know what my plans for tonight are but I’m sure something will come along…eventually. It’s so cold :0! For some reason my Zune got all messed up and all the bands and songs and titles for everything are still here but they wont play, I need to delete everything and out it back. *sigh* I made a nifty collage for the back of my Zune, I put it in the case. Hmm…so what fascinating things happened to Raven this week? I’ll have a top 10 most interesting Raven’s week facts every week.

got double teamed pelvic-thrust-danced on by Shawn & Ari. Haha, ridiculous and thats the most interesting things that happened to me this week. Splendid. OH YEAH! I also decided it would be in my best interested if I used more silly words in sentences like

Goodness gracious I’m cold. It’s very cold in my house and with all the snow and freezing rain and whatnot outside it’s worse. OH! Not to worry, friends! I just put on an extra hoodie on. I’m now wearing a long sleeved yellow sweater, a black fitted hoodie, and a red and black stretched out hoodie. It used to be fitted as well then I wore it too much. I think I’m going to write a short story about some kid that goes outside his house one day and finds a 100 foot ice cream sunday outside his house. Basically the story is he invited his friends over and they all put on scuba diving suits and grab spoons and get a bunch of latter’s and go up to eat some ice cream. The kid and all his friends get hypothermia and die because they were too confused and hypothermia’d up to think to just go inside the kid’s house which was RIGHT there. HAHA! After I write it I’m going to give it to Kayla so she can write a portion of the story, then give it to somebody else, probably Awi,  so that they can finish it. It will be such a great story. The idea came from when me and mi madre went to Friendly’s and were talking about all the awful photographs where people photo shopped giant ice creams and burgers in peoples yards and at famous places. Me and my mom always talk about how stupid it is and I started rambling, as I often do about how it would be nifty if there was ice cream outside our house and then the hypothermia story just came out of my mouth while I was rambling. She said I should write a children’s book about it, minus the hypothermia and dying part. Maybe I’ll write both. I am currently listening to The Killers “Sam’s Town” CD. I love The Killers, they are way up there on my list of faves. Their new “Sawdust” CD is really great, too. When you open the jewel case it smells like sawdust, they used scented ink. I would probably do that too if I was that awesome. Ok, I’m seriously wonderin’ what I’m gonna do tonight. You know movie my mom really loves but I hate?

Ghost Rider.

I HATE Ghost Rider, it was one of the worst movies I have ever seen in my entire life. My mom forced me to watch it with her and I kept telling her it was lame and stupid the whole time. Goodness. She also really enjoyed Transformers, which I didn’t wanna see in the first place but she forced me to go to see it in theaters with her.  After that we watched Serenity because my mom said the cute dude that played “Black Heart” in Ghost Rider was in it. Serenity was good. I decided that the Black Heart guy is only cute when his skin was all pale and he had super dark eyes. Yeah…he wasn’t cute in Serenity.

This entry is bad but don’t cry about, ok?

I’ma gonna go now. Have a lovely time, kiddies. Blue text? I’d livin’ on the edge, aren’t I?